So Proud

This post is not going to include poetry in it, because I feel like just writing:)

Last night was my boyfriends choir concert, and it pretty much blew me away. My friends ROCKED, and I am so proud of them. I especially am proud of my boyfriend, Patrick. And I never knew what it felt like to be proud of someone, because I was always jealous of how they were better at something then me. And I realized that your going to just live a miserable life if you can't be proud of someone you love and care about. And Patrick has helped me with this. I may have been jealous because they found something their good at and I just haven't found it yet. And maybe I have, but I just haven't realized it. All I know is that he blew me away last night. He has improved in everything; dancing, singing, etc. He is so much more outgoing now and he is smiling every darn day. I use to always smile, and laugh and starting about a year ago everything changed. I started falling behind in school, never being happy, and just everything flipped upside down for me. But I feel like now, who I am and who I want to be is coming back. I have strong goals set for myself for the future. I want to do something BIG. I want to change the world, help people, show people the bright side of things. But I realized before I do that, I have to do it for myself. I have to look at the bright side of things, I have to help myself. And I feel like I have. Main thing I'm working on now, is looking at the bright side of things everyday. Waking up with a smile on my face, telling myself, "Today will be a good day." I mean so many other people have it SOO much worse then me, and I got to be happy for what I got.

I think this will be a good year:)

-Nicole !